CAN SOMEONE TALK SOME SENSE INTO HER!!!!!

 

i’m seriously fed up of her screaming and shouting everytime she’s unhappy with things. its not like we’re always in the wrong. its seems like she have the power to make what’s wrong to right. i tried arguing a few times but always failed. YES she’s done alot for us..for me. but whats the point when i’m not truly happy. it sucks. and i hate it. we always end up in tears after everything. she’s crying. i know. really. i need someone to teach her how to be less frustrated.. why cant she be the model mum i always wanted to have. the kind who’s gentle loving and care for the family. she never showed concern to me when i was sick. all she noes how to do is to blame me from falling sick. what the hell. i really reallly wish that one day. just for one day she’ll really care and talk to everyone in a really gentle loving way which i alwayss thought a mum would be. now. she’s crying in the bathroom. i can hear her bloowing out her mucus. i too am tearing. why. because i felt sorry for my dad? cannot take her screams anymore?? i dont know? but nobody seems to stand by me and support what i think. when i help my dad by telling my mum off.my dad comes to tell me that i’m wrong. asking me to apologise. no way i’m i gonna do that. i’m not at fault. even if i’m really at fault. her’s is much severe then mine. how can she insist on things her way and start shouting at everyone as if we’re all wrong. i seriously hate all this. everything can change if she change her temper. be more gentle mum. that’s what i truly hope……..

today was the first time u smsed me ever since i've changed my phone.
our conversation lasted for only 3 smses. guess i've really gotten over you and not longer cares.
after months of struggling with my own feelings, its finally over.
if it was a few months ago i guessed i would still ask. why. why did u ask me for?
but now. i try not to care nor do i even bother.
guess u are now very happy with ur life. and i too am moving on.
it has been tough i noe. ever since i felt so hurt after the trip through that cave when u gave me that 'stayaway from me' stare. all i did was care. i've never cared so much and u were the first.
come to think of it. i guess i'm just pure dumb. so dumb that i thought u would noe why i did so many things. but after all that happened over the last few months, i really saw the real you. the person that ignores others for the one you love. and sort of dont really care for ppl around u. u hurt the hearts of many i guess. nonetheless. i hope u do learn one day that that's really not the way to do things. true friends are always important and would be there for you no matter what..........

Restart..

hmm. its been some time ever since i closed my blog.
unsure how many times i've closed and reopen my blog.
but this time its just for me to write things that are closer to my heart, that not many ppl know.
since this blog address is around for quite sometime even when i've closed it, its still stated on my facebook profile page, i assume not many ppl would relook at my blog.
so here i'll just be posting whenever i feel the urge to tell somebody my true feelings.
so whoever who may be reading this, whether u noe me or not. this is more of a public journal. that i hope that u would not talk about in ur daily conversations.